I wear my fears under my make up
(its where its not often on my face)
I wear my pain with my heels
(because i command attention and feel beautiful)
I am like many girls my age,
while some prefer to cry their pain out and drink their fears,
I prefer to write out my pain, knee mail my fears and Dance my frustration and depression.
I fear the distance i have to walk its why i prefer to fly.
I fear to be delayed.
(actually i refuse to be delayed cz am not a child of terah)
I fear delay of my dreams, delay of my desires
I fear giving up, I fear holding on,
I fear waking up tomorow know yesterdays dream wasnt accomplished in its time.
(yes because it slows me down)
It frustrates me
I fear getting married old because i want to be young and vibrant when it happens
I fear i wont be able to stay 50yrs in marriage
Coz i fear outgrowing each other, i fear failure.
I fear being desperate because it makes me it cake faster than my heart pumps blood
I fear my STRENGTH AND PATIENCE
(do not open yo eyes)
Its a virtue but i fear the day i shall wake up and i cannot be strong no more and my patience was taken for granted
I fear that i shall not build my teenage dreams in time enough to be inspired by them.
U all inspire me mayb just like i inspire u
but deep inside me lies a little girl with fears
who has only known one way to survive is have faith, pray and keep hope.
I fear not being able to get all my dreams together within my time.
And oh! this thing disturbs me, confuses me and fustrates me
I fear not being able to bring up my children like i dream
i fear i fear i fear.
The only thing i dont fear is thinking that God is by my side.
I fear not being understood.
I fear not being appreciated.
I fear losing love
I fear that the day i wont be able to find a pen, a pc or notebook to write will be the end of me
I fear the day my strength will fail me i LOATHE the day i will crash
I don’t think i shall be able to get up from it yet if i do i won’t be the same
I woke up with all these fears today
and i just realized how scared the little girl in me is,
She has grown into a coward
I fear i fear i fear.